Omega Point

A blog by Catherine Winters


31 Dec

A decade in the life of…


Jan­u­ary 1, 2000
The Y2K bug does not result in air­planes falling from the sky, stock mar­kets crash­ing, or nuclear mis­siles launch­ing on their own. Pun­dits decry the waste­ful spend­ing of bil­lions to ensure noth­ing sig­nif­i­cant hap­pened. IT depart­ments world­wide sput­ter in bewil­der­ment. “But! But!”

Octo­ber, 2000
I come out to a few select friends and fam­ily. My par­ents imme­di­ately fight over which one of them is most accept­ing of it. It later turns out the answer is “neither”.

Sep­tem­ber 11, 2001
The Amer­i­can Cen­tury comes to a close. The sub­se­quent decade sees West­ern civ­i­liza­tion dig its heels in, ineptly seek­ing secu­rity and short-term gains at all costs. I watch CNN for 6 months straight.

Octo­ber 23, 2001
Apple releases the iPod. I fail to see what the big deal is. Investors dis­agree sig­nif­i­cantly on this point.

Decem­ber 20, 2002
Sec­ond Life? What’s that?” I ask as I click the link. “What a stu­pid name!”

Feb­ru­ary 1, 2003
I move to Van­cou­ver on an ill-advised whim. The next three years are…interesting. To this day, I still wake up think­ing cock­roaches are eat­ing dead skin off my face.

Jan­u­ary 14, 2006
Some dude cuts most of my face off and totally goes to town on my skull with power tools. For­tu­nately, he was a doc­tor. I can breathe through my nose now.

August, 2006
As a part-time con­tract LSL devel­oper, I am paid in US dol­lars. Cur­rency fluc­tu­a­tions force me to give up LSL devel­op­ment in favour of work­ing a min­i­mum wage retail job. I like it a lot better.

Novem­ber 18, 2006
I man­age to get pub­lished for the first time. It is not exactly my finest work.

Decem­ber 20, 2006
I’ve just been told about this new CMS that’s sup­posed to be pretty good. “Dru­pal? More like Poo–pal!” I exclaim to a cir­cle of blank, embar­rassed faces. Nice.

April 21, 2007
A lab test indi­cates I may have can­cer. Sub­se­quent tests indi­cate I have stress. I con­sider rem­e­dy­ing both by hav­ing alcoholism.

July 22, 2008
My Palm Treo dies. I buy an iPhone. Unfor­tu­nately, every­one I know can be divided into two camps: Peo­ple who already have iPhones and peo­ple who don’t care that I am now the coolest per­son ever.

August 15, 2008
I learn my knee pain is likely to be the result of osteoarthri­tis. At such an early age, the impli­ca­tion is that I will not be able to walk in 10 years.

Sep­tem­ber 1, 2008
I am told I do not have osteoarthri­tis after all. As such, I am likely to con­tinue walk­ing for some time. “Your knees look great,” the doc­tor says, peer­ing at the x-ray. “Say, how much exer­cise do you get?

Jan­u­ary 1-Dec 31, 2009
I endure a great deal of bull­shit. My friends are kept appraised of the situation–to their dismay.

And that’s what I did dur­ing the aughts. How about you?


25 Dec

Mount Pleasant burns down… again.


I just got back from Kingsway and Broad­way, the scene of the lat­est highly sus­pi­cious fire in Mount Pleas­ant.

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For now, I’ve uploaded a Flickr set–tags to fol­low shortly.

With typ­i­cal Van­cou­ver cyn­i­cism, con­sen­sus among most of the bystanders (also, news media, city work­ers, fire­fight­ers, etc.) seemed to be that the soon-to-be-constructed condo tow­ers at Kingsway and Broad­way and Main and Broad­way would be very nice and prof­itable indeed.

Update: The Van­cou­ver Sun has also posted an exten­sive gallery of pre-dawn pho­tos.

Update #1: I made a Google Map illus­trat­ing what might be in store for Main Street when devel­op­ers get some of this land rezoned.


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22 Dec

Better living through labels


“Your fam­ily just moves from one cri­sis to another,” my ther­a­pist said.

As an intro­verted, queer teenager, I’d been forced to talk to a pretty long list of psy­chol­o­gists and psy­chi­a­trists. Despite this, I’d cer­tainly had never heard one make a lot of sense before. Psy­chotic fun­da­men­tal­ist bull­shit, cer­tainly, but an accu­rate observation?

I was shocked. I hadn’t seen her long, but so far, we’d mostly talked about my strained rela­tion­ship with my par­ents. And she was right. We totally did. She empha­sized to me that she was my ther­a­pist, not my par­ents’, but made no bones about the fact that she thought a diag­no­sis of bor­der­line per­son­al­ity dis­or­der was pretty fit­ting for one of them.

Ten years later, I sus­pect I’ve still got the ‘cri­sis’ habit, despite my best efforts. My friend S. dis­agrees, con­vinced mine is a calm, mea­sured response to the universe’s inher­ent anti-Catherine nature. Still, my therapist’s words have always stuck with me, as I worry about whether I might have inher­ited any­thing more seri­ous than a habit.1

On that note, this arti­cle from Sci­en­tific Amer­i­can was par­tic­u­larly inter­est­ing to me, as it dis­cusses bio­log­i­cal com­po­nents of BPD, but also implies that, as with autism, ADD and mood dis­or­ders, there exists a “drama queen” spec­trum. Neat. Maybe there’s a drama queen Kin­sey scale.

Dan­ger­ous Liaisons: How to Deal with a Drama Queen” (via Pete Quily)

  1. Remem­ber kids, the secret to not being crazy is to con­stantly ask your­self if you might be. []

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14 Dec

Sure, we can put a man on the moon, but we can’t put–oh, right.


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Eugene Cer­nan walks on the moon, Dec 13, 1972

I’m skep­ti­cal of the use­ful­ness of manned space­flight, even as I believe in its long-term neces­sity. (Besides, should it be nec­es­sary for humans to leave Earth, we could get that going on fairly short order. The technology’s straight­for­ward, even if we don’t have inter­plan­e­tary ships today.)

I was born almost a decade after the last time a human stepped foot on the moon. The Apollo pro­gram was Cold War nose-thumbing and sabre-rattling at its most bla­tant. It was a cor­po­rate boon­dog­gle on a scale scarcely seen since. It was a dis­trac­tion from the hor­rors of Viet­nam and from the wan­ing pop­u­lar­ity of two Presidents.

Land­ing on the moon was also the most impres­sive thing humans have ever achieved.

Despite all its flaws, I’ve been a big sup­porter of the space pro­gram for my entire life. Build­ing bet­ter tele­scopes and probes is absolutely nec­es­sary for the same rea­sons the Large Hadron Col­lider is nec­es­sary: because if we don’t seek out knowl­edge about the uni­verse, if we don’t appre­ci­ate it, what the hell is the point?

36 years ago today, Eugene Cer­nan and Har­ri­son Schmitt stepped into their lunar mod­ule and returned home, the last humans to step foot on another world. That’s not appre­ci­at­ing it, guys.


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